Friday, August 05, 2005

Oh No Not Mid-Terms Already

As we near the end of week four, we start to crash study for our mid term essays and exams. So much energy put into each question, a sigh of relief pushes out of our bodies as we think, only ninety-nine more to go… It seems like an eternity, as our brains struggle to find the answer hidden somewhere locked in our memory banks.

I keep tapping my head as if hitting numbers on a number pad at the bank ATM trying to access my account; sometimes I have enough credit left to meet my demands…

Some questions seem so confusing and blistering hard we feel like we are sitting under a hot lamp focused on our face with the Gestapo standing over us ready to pop us in the back of the head. Well maybe not that bad… will someone get this guy out of here?

The worse part of Mid-terms is starting the projects we have to write. We know what we need to write about, we know what it must consist of as far as how long, blah blah blah… but what gets me is how to start it.

Sometimes I sit for hours just looking at the screen as if I have been hypnotized by some object bouncing around telling me to sleeeep… sleeeep… sleeeep… my brain so completely numb that I feel like I am “lost in space”. Feels like you’re floating on nitrous oxide and Novocain.

Cup after cup of coffee and tea and a few doses of chocolate to get me hyped up… my brain snaps… Its like … duh female... its right there in front of you… then by some miracle my fingers start flying and my brain begins to manifest itself into some kind of thinking wonder that I have one thought after the next that actually make sense!

Whoa where did that come from… ok ok must have been the last donut I stuff into my face causing a sugar rush that sparked some energy in me… or was it the foot up the arse where someone kicked me into action :)

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Wednesday, August 03, 2005

I can’t believe it!

I just found out tonight that my instructor in World Conflict has written a book on the similarities between America and the Roman Empire. I can remember how many times I would listen in awe to Dan talking about the very same thing, and how much I would try to encourage him to write a book on it!

I am so excited, because with all that I have learned from Dan and now my instructor also writing a book on it. I always wanted to write an article on it myself. I find it so fascinating how much history continues to repeat itself.

People change, the area and time changes, the types of conflicts and cultures change but we all still continue in an endless cycle of life and death that repeats its course over and over again.

They say we should look to the past to learn about our history so we don’t make the same mistakes or to improve our existence.

But no matter what, we cycle through life such as generations before us have, with each cycle eventually leading to the end of our existence. Are we as the ancients believed, continuing through life with an irrefutable destiny that cannot be stopped even though we revolutionized it here and there?

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Monday, August 01, 2005

Fourth Week Already!

Mid terms are just next week as we enter the halfway mark in school. I wish it wasn’t going to fast, I love these classes and instructors.

This week I was a bit off mark at the beginning. Over doing it with needing to get things done around the house, the sudden death of my nephew and horrendous headaches by Friday slowed me down to a snails pace.

I got a note from my World Conflict instructor “hinting” to debate more. I explained what was going on and he was very supportive.

One reply to a question in his class I was very quick answered and very lazy. To which he said something in a joking way. But it kicked my butt in a sense and I came back flying in with both guns blazing. I’m glad he did it, I needed it.

It got me motivated to the point that I even came back to full form and got a 98 on my project of another class with help from my darlin to expand a bit on my idea. I have decided to expand more on it and hopefully get a book out of it. *shrugs* who knows? (The article will be available to read under the spotlight from the main page of “ball of confusion” soon)

I got another 90 on Quiz three in World Conflict… just waiting on my quiz grade in Investigating Terrorism… I did however get my first two grades; they were a 96 on the first one and 95 on the second one.

There was a bit of panic a week ago, but I think it was other things batting my brain at the time. I believe the death of my nephew, monthly female obligations (grrrrrrrrr) and a bit of a problem with my mouth running too much that nearly cost me one of the most important people in my life, caught up with me and caused a panic attack which exhausted me physically and emotionally, causing a severe headache by the end of the week.

I’m happy to say its better now, and I made it though. I’m feeling great, going back to school and the support I get from my family and friends has me on a high that I pray I never come down from.

Some will say, but you did it on your own, to which I reply, yes I did it on my own, but it was them who encouraged and supported me that gave me strength to do it, and gave me a nudge and kick sometimes to keep it going.

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